"You gave me a infinity within the number of days and I am grateful."

I'm 'grateful.'

How much can one simple word actually convey all the feelings that the word 'grateful' actually contains.
The word grateful.. what a funny word really. It tells me that I'm happy, but but it tells me that I'm thankful, tells me that I'm filled with love, the word 'grateful' really tells me that I have an over abundance of emotion and I couldn't think of what word to use to describe every emotion that I could be feeling all in one simple moment.

it boils down to simply: 'grateful' is a loaded word.

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Have you ever been given an infinity? I have, or well at least I think I have. Has someone ever made the day feel like its passing as slow as it can, allowing you to cherish every single second of every minute? It's a special feeling. a feeling like your floating on a cloud that you never want to leave.

It's not the cheesy butterflies or the juvenile giggling, its being happy to simply stand next to a person and to be content. It's to want nothing more than to spend your time and your energy on that person.
Thats an infinity, being happy with the same person forever and not even having it be a thought in your mind that you won't ever see them again.

That is infinite.

that is powerful.

Now think about it like this:

you love someone so much, but they're sick, and you know that, and everyday you try to give them the very best day ever, but you have to do that every day? well my my my my, that just sounds exhausting and I'm not even doing anything. But its what happens all the time.

When people are sick.
When people leave.

It happens people.

Lets understand something though here: We are all going to die. and there is nothing I can do, or you can do to stop it. it just happens.

I can't tell you when Im going to die, but I know that it will happen eventually, and I know that someday Its going to leave someone gutted, but thats whats going to happen.

I want to have that notion of an infinity within the numbered days.

it's plain and simple but its what I want. I want someone to love me that much that it feels like it goes on for forever, and then when it finally has to end, I know that I loved them infinitely, and that I gave them the world.

I don't need to have grand gestures of love, to prove that I love them. I can show someone I love them simply by being with them some days. Now I'm not saying that you shouldn't have grand gestures. please do it, its romantic and sweet and it means that you care enough to take the time.

But when get to that day that I am going to die, I am going to think back on my life and Im going to remember someone very special and dear to my heart. and Im going to yes, think about the gestures that they have given towards me, or all the thought in the projects they dedicated to me.

But.

Im going to also think about all the times that they took care of me, when I was sick, tired or needed them too. Im going to think about the times that they just sat down next to me and told me that I looked beautiful, or the times that they would do the dishes that night when Im to tired.

That. is what it means to be given an infinity, to be given the littlest, simplest and sometimes the things that you wouldn't even think matter, thats what what it means to have an infinity. You can give me the world..

But all I really want is.. you.

"You gave me an infinity within the numbered days and am I grateful."

-Birdy.