"You doubt your value, don't run from who you are."

Never doubt who you are. 

Period. End of story and no negotiations.

When I think about myself, theres a lot of times where I don't value myself, either in my mind, my body or even my heart. 

My body is my own, and sometimes I forget frequently that I need to take care of it and I need to treat it with some respect. There so many things that I want to do, but I can't. Like eat fifty tacos, but I value my health so I don't do that. 

My mind is my own, but most times I don't give it the respect it deserves. It's always hungry for more. Wanting the things that it can't have; its a curious little thing, just always soaking up whatever information it can get its little talons on. Trying and seeking and often times reaching the pinnacle of what I think is the top. I always need more. 

My heart: it's a wild, untamed place that I don't even understand. It's broken, jagged, and to my belief ruined. I know deep down in my heart that it's not, that I just gave it to the wrong people to have and to hold. I didn't value my heart when it was my own and expected others to take care of it. 

Sometimes if I'm really feeling like it, I let other people love me and give my heart away when I know that I shouldn't. I fall in love when I know that it will never be returned. I love whole heartedly, wanting nothing but the best for someone even though I know nothing will ever come of it. That I will never be loved in return. 

I don't think thats valuing my heart.

I think the point of this whole post, was to explain to everyone; that sometimes we let ourselves go and that we make silly choices, but to never forget that when you come back to yourself you can't forget who you are inside. 

I am a woman, who wants to be cherished and to be loved and to be valued, and I am a woman that wants to cherish and to love and to value as well.

-Birdy

"Hearts are Wild Creatures, that's why our ribs are cages."

"Hearts are Wild Creatures, that's why our ribs are cages."


okay, now that we've read this twice, lets break it down a little bit.

Hearts are wild creatures..

My heart, my literal heart is something of great routine. It beats every second of every day and without fail, because if my heart fails then I will die. That is an absolute truth. Something that can't be altered or changed no matter how much we want it to be different.

My emotional heart... Well now that's a different story. If my heart is wild it would be after everyone now wouldn't it. It would take one look at every boy and tell me that I'm destined to be with him. My own heart, my personal, concealed, protected heart.. Wants to be cautious in all its adventures; it wants some one who won't think about hurting me, that will try to find the broken pieces and put them back together. That's what my heart wants.
Some people need that sense of wildness that the heart brings. For them especially they need a cage to keep them from doing something reckless.
If you've ever done something stupid and reckless in the name of 'love' or really infatuation then you know what I mean.

God knows That I did.

I chipped away tiny pieces of my wild and free heart, and gave it to a boy that.. That you know didn't take good enough care of it, so.. My heart went far far away, to heel and to make me better. Because of the boy who took my wildness away I learned I need to be careful and to protect my freedom.

My tiny little heart now, I can still see the places where it's been chipped away at where someone has taken some thing from me. Either my dignity or my innocence. Things that I'll never ever get back.

I will never get back the part of me that I willingly gave to him.

Our hearts are sooo so wild and so pure and willing that our ribs are that cage to keep us guarded and to keep us safe.

We don't always know why things happen the way they do, and we don't always give our hearts the protection we deserve...

Our hearts are wild creatures that's why our ribs are cages..

Hearts really means love, and to humans love is everything.. That's what makes the world go round.
Ribs, is our common sense, something everyone is born with, but not everyone learns how to treat with respect.

So remember this next time you want to love without boundrys and you think that you can change anyone. You may not. Or who knows, your heart may find its new best friend.

"You gave me a infinity within the number of days and I am grateful."

I'm 'grateful.'

How much can one simple word actually convey all the feelings that the word 'grateful' actually contains.
The word grateful.. what a funny word really. It tells me that I'm happy, but but it tells me that I'm thankful, tells me that I'm filled with love, the word 'grateful' really tells me that I have an over abundance of emotion and I couldn't think of what word to use to describe every emotion that I could be feeling all in one simple moment.

it boils down to simply: 'grateful' is a loaded word.

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Have you ever been given an infinity? I have, or well at least I think I have. Has someone ever made the day feel like its passing as slow as it can, allowing you to cherish every single second of every minute? It's a special feeling. a feeling like your floating on a cloud that you never want to leave.

It's not the cheesy butterflies or the juvenile giggling, its being happy to simply stand next to a person and to be content. It's to want nothing more than to spend your time and your energy on that person.
Thats an infinity, being happy with the same person forever and not even having it be a thought in your mind that you won't ever see them again.

That is infinite.

that is powerful.

Now think about it like this:

you love someone so much, but they're sick, and you know that, and everyday you try to give them the very best day ever, but you have to do that every day? well my my my my, that just sounds exhausting and I'm not even doing anything. But its what happens all the time.

When people are sick.
When people leave.

It happens people.

Lets understand something though here: We are all going to die. and there is nothing I can do, or you can do to stop it. it just happens.

I can't tell you when Im going to die, but I know that it will happen eventually, and I know that someday Its going to leave someone gutted, but thats whats going to happen.

I want to have that notion of an infinity within the numbered days.

it's plain and simple but its what I want. I want someone to love me that much that it feels like it goes on for forever, and then when it finally has to end, I know that I loved them infinitely, and that I gave them the world.

I don't need to have grand gestures of love, to prove that I love them. I can show someone I love them simply by being with them some days. Now I'm not saying that you shouldn't have grand gestures. please do it, its romantic and sweet and it means that you care enough to take the time.

But when get to that day that I am going to die, I am going to think back on my life and Im going to remember someone very special and dear to my heart. and Im going to yes, think about the gestures that they have given towards me, or all the thought in the projects they dedicated to me.

But.

Im going to also think about all the times that they took care of me, when I was sick, tired or needed them too. Im going to think about the times that they just sat down next to me and told me that I looked beautiful, or the times that they would do the dishes that night when Im to tired.

That. is what it means to be given an infinity, to be given the littlest, simplest and sometimes the things that you wouldn't even think matter, thats what what it means to have an infinity. You can give me the world..

But all I really want is.. you.

"You gave me an infinity within the numbered days and am I grateful."

-Birdy.

"Wit beyond measure is a man's greatest treasure."

Harry Potter Quote!
Wow, its been awhile since I've done one of these, most of the time I focus on love and all that rot. Anyhow; I love Harry Potter! I am a massive Potterhead and very proud to be one! I frankly love this quote, I think J.K. Rowling is a literary genius, simply because she brought us these amazing books.
"Wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure." I love that, because it's so true. It's a Ravenclaw quote, so even though I am generally annoyed by the house of Ravenclaw this would be the only thing besides Luna to ever really come out of that house that I really like.

I think, that you can be as tough as anything, but if you don't know how to use it, then what good is it? Wit, knowing how to get yourself out of trouble, just by talking, or coming up with something clever.
I know plenty of people who can do this, and frankly they are some of my best friends, so let me just tell you, there is nothing wrong with a house full of smarty pants, in fact they are quite entertaining! They are able to hold good conversations and challenge your thinking and such. They make the world seem interesting.
I am honestly, not the biggest fan of this house. I don't know why, but some of the people that can be sorted into this house, can be very.. well how should I put this, annoying.
(Small backstory, I, being a potterhead, tend to sort people into the Hogwarts houses. I know several annoyingly smart people, (Ravenclaws), some very brave people (Gryffindors) hard workers and genuinly good people (Hufflepuffs) Then there are people like me, quite nasty sometimes, but are generally resourceful, cunning, but with a sense of great ambition. if you couldn't tell I am a Slytehrin and I am very happy to be one.)
((Now if you can't tell from this post, I am a major nerd and I love to just show my knowledge of the topic.))
Anyways back the the topic at hand. RAVENCLAW; wit above all else, great trait, it really is, to be able to think lightly on your feet and to actually have that sense of knowledge that not many people do.
I love to think that Luna Lovegood was really the best representation of Ravenclaw, as scatterbrained as she could be, (ex. loosing shoes, dressing up, wearing strange glasses.) she really was the best ravenclaw, she knew what it was to be humble as well as intelligent, and she is one of my favorite people in all the books.

Anyways, long, (very long story short.) Wit, (in my opinion is much preferred) to being all braun, I would rather be friends with someone who can have a conversation with me, and MAKE IT INTERESTING! so thank you very much reading this very long (sort of long) post about my second least favorite Hogwarts house. As much as I love it.. (which I barely do) Luna was the only good thing to come out of it. because i mean come on people, even Ravenclaws own daughter gave Riddle the Diadem.. so heres to that. But, when I think of Ravenclaw, I think of the sweet little Luna Lovegood and how she basically made up for the whole house.

-Birdy.

"Wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure."

“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”

Such a great quote. (I think i start every post off like this.) but it's so true, it's an amazing quote, and it's so young and freeing. Like it's a quote for the young and the old, (but sorry, people, mostly the young.) The book where is is from, is one that has gained a lot of popularity in the last year, I don't know how many of you have heard of that little movie called.. "The Perks of Being a Wallflower"? Staring Emma Stone and Logan Lerman and Ezra Miller, well.. I still have yet to watch it, actually, it's sitting on my desk next to me while I type. But I did read the book.
Let me give you a basic idea of this book. It's about a boy named Charlie.(Played by Lerman) and he has just gone through a very devastating loss. his best friend Michael had committed suicide a couple months before the book started. Charlie is about to start high school as a fifteen year old freshman. (A little on the older side as I started high school as a very young thirteen year old. ((my birthday, by a cruel trick of the calendar, falls in early October. And I was put into school, destined to always be the youngest in my grade. And I'll come back to that.))
Charlie literally knows no one, so to cope with the anxiety of going into high school alone he starts writing to someone who no one knows, but charlie clearly feels comfortable talking to. He tells of the struggles that he knows he will face. He meets seniors, Sam (Played by Watson) and her stepbrother Patrick (Played By Miller). Charlie really realizes through the book that he is a young man and that he has a lot of growing up to do, he falls in love with Sam, even though she is older then him and about to leave for school.

Okay, now that you have the gist of the plot line I will explain why I actually picked the quote.
I picked this, because In a away, I think everyone is a charlie, we all have these huge traumas in our lives, they may not be huge things, like it might be.. bad grades, or trying to get your parents to understand you, or maybe its things like loosing a loved one, struggling with depression, anxiety and a big one, loving someone who doesn't love you back.
we all need to come of age. We all grow up, but some of us grow up with harder obstacles to climb over. I think for me, it's definitely been the age thing, I am one of the youngest in my class. I am a seventeen year old senior, who just turned seventeen a couple months ago. So, for me, I'm always looked on as I should be younger, or I shouldn't be with the grade that I am, but I think through hard work that i have proven that I am meant to be there. I am meant to be standing up there this year and and getting my diploma.
Now I wonder if your thinking "Well seventeen isn't very young for a senior." well it isn't, but when I started my senior year, I was that awkward sixteen year old senior. and that was the problem. I start school in september and my birthday is early October. So for me, when you have people saying that you're the baby of the class, it makes you just want to prove them wrong. sometimes the baby of the class can achieve more then the eldest.

I may not have a story like Charlie's, (and believe me, I'm glad it's not all true!) but I do understand that growing up today is hard work, we are faced with some many obstacles in our growing up. Whether it is.. drugs, depression, anxiety, or abuse, we still need to grow up. So be INFINITE. Be that person that can stand up and say they've beaten everything.

-Birdy.

“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.” -Stephen Chbosky

"You're off to Great Places! Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting, So... get on your way!"

Dr. Seuss. I love this man. Um for someone who wrote children's stories (He is the reason I fell in love with poetry.) Anyways, back to the post.
I am a fan of tis book because... well it's a book about your future. Or what you'll make of it; maybe you'll sit at home with your parents for the rest of your life, maybe you'll get married and start a family. But, "Oh the places you'll go!" To quote the famous man, whatever you choose to do, I mean, "You're off to great places!" (I simply love this poem.)
Okay, so heres a tiny bit about me. I believe in what I like to call, the "Peter Pan Method." Living everyday like you're young, still wanting to fly away to spend the day with Peter. Even though we must grow up sometime, today certainly isn't that day. I plan on getting a tattoo behind my.. right ear, its a picture of the second star to the left and straight on till morning, as a reminder to me, to never get to old to have fun with the people I love the most. To play with my family, to laugh with my friends, to love with that childlike love, the unconditional love that will look at someone like they can do no wrong.
Now sadly, all those things that I aspire to do, don't always come true. I falter. I forget to have fun with my family, sometimes I don't always laugh with my friends. I certainly don't love all the time, I am human. Everything that I want, I need to work for; working for it, drives me to be a better person then I am.

"Congratulations!
Today is your day,
You're off to great places!
You're off and away!"

A lovely beginning stanza from the wonderful poet, this book, it's like a send off to the world. I am almost all grown up, almost eighteen years old. I don't want to grow up, if I could, sometimes I think that I want to still be twelve years old, waiting for Peter Pan to come and take me away. Waiting for my childhood to take place. I know though, that I will still be young, forever young, but now it's time to face the music and grow up a little.

"You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
In any direction you choose!
You're on your own. And you know what you know!
And YOU are the the guy who'll decide where to go."

When you grow up, you learn things, you learn everything fact. Everything that your parents have taught you. Everything that you have learned on your own. Everything that others have taught you. You have feet in your shoes, you can steer yourself. You grow up, then you move on, to face the big bad world on your own.


You, can control your future, because it's YOURS. No one can take it away.

"You're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting,
So... Get on your way!

"We all have to grow up sometimes, we might as well know what we want." -Amy March. -Little Women.

-Birdy

"We love the things we love for what they are."

Robert Frost. Beautiful line. I like poetry, however Robert Frost is not my favorite poet, I prefer the darker side of poetry such as Edgar Allen Poe, I think I just relate better to it, yes, that sounds silly, that I like darker poets, but I think they're more intriguing then a poet who writes about a tree blowing in the wind. When I write poems, they're generally about something I've gone through, I like to have a story about myself rather then just reading a puff piece about a flower petal. I like Emily Dickinson, but only some of her things. I want, when a reader reads one of my poems I want them to get a small glimpse into my life, not just my love of nature. (I like it, in concentrated doses, or when I'm with my friends, alone however, I do not like nature.)
Anyways, yes, I used a quote with love in it... AGAIN. (why you might ask? I wouldn't know.) I think love, because it's so foreign to me, is what makes it so interesting, so special so and unattainable. Because that what love is to me, love is unattainable. I push it away, so I'm not complaining about it. Love has this thing about it see, that when you do find something you love, it doesn't matter how flawed it is. You could love the most disgusting shirt in the world, but you still love it for whatever reason, it could've belonged to someone that you cherished of found to be special, or a wrapper from something that you had fun at, silly things, but I mean, you love what you love.
The heart wants what the heart wants. Or else it does not care at all. (I'm pretty sure that Emily Dickinson said that.) I mean though, it's true, its incredibly true. As much as I'm going to tell myself that I don't want to fall for anyone, my heart decides, my brain kinda just follows along with the rest of my body. I simply don't have a choice. I think that's one of the fun parts of being young, you can make mistakes, but still the rest of your body doesn't really understand what you've just done to yourself, all it realize's is that you'r happy and you seem to stay happy for a long enough time.
Love is a disease that poisons the mind and all reasoning along with it. (I said that by the way.) I mean it really is, then Paulo Coelho said "Love is a disease that no one wants to get rid of. Those who catch it never try to get better, and those who suffer do not wish to be cured." which I think is sooo true, (yes I just had one of those strange girl moments.) Love really is a disease, and it's that strange one that EVERYONE wants. Then there a couple who are like, 'well, no. I think being clear and happy is such a nice curse and a burden that I'll go with alone.' because when you're in love, you don't think clearly, I mean how many people don't look back on early years and think, 'wow, I am dumb, why did I like them? I don't know...? I am so much smarter now.' Everyone thinks like that, so if you're that weird person that DOESN'T think like that, then please, tell us your secret, because I would like to know the magic for happy living.
You can ask anyone who's actually in love that this question. "Would you change a thing?" Most of the time, they would look at their significant other, or think of them and say with a happy silly tone, "No, of course not." That's what everyone says, it's not just what I would say, (which I will never.) or friends of mine, I mean it's just the generic answer to that AGE OLD QUESTION...
anyways, we love the things we love for what they are. You love what you love, simple as that. I don't love it for something it's not, I won't love someone for something that they aren't. I want to look at someone, and know why I fell for them, normally when I do see someone, and I fall for them, I need to figure out the reason I fell for them. I don't just want to aimlessly fall for someone, I want to like them for them. I want to notice someone, but I don't just want to like someone to like them. I want to like them, because I see something/someone worth actually liking.

-Birdy

"We love the things we love for what they are."